As those of you who check up on these posts daily, you may have noticed that I've been MIA since Thursday or Friday. I want to clarify: I have not given up on this challenge. I am still using the breathing techniques that have worked best for me, and meditating when I can. I found, though, that having to do so much to make myself less stressed made me much, much more stressed.
I've come to this conclusion: Self help books are exactly what I thought they'd be. This book was not written for those with anxiety or anxious feelings, it was written for those who have had a few stressful weeks and need something to validate and fix their feelings. I thought for a minute that my feelings were superficial because the things they were suggesting weren't helping at all. It turns out that they're as deep as I thought they were, and these steps were too much for me.
Because I've felt so much extra stress with this challenge, and because trying to think about my thoughts and feelings 24/7 is exhausting, I've fallen behind with my running. I need to get back into it because I'm not feeling as good about myself as I was when I had a good schedule. That is more important to me than forcing myself to deepen my introspective thoughts because I need to feel healthy and good about myself in order to be a high-functioning adult. That may not be true for everyone, but it is true for me.
That being said, I would not say that my efforts toward this challenge were futile. I've learned some things about myself, and I've learned some things about others. I've also learned that not everything you (or I) think or feel fits a cookie-cutter mold that can be fixed through reading a book. I think the 16 days that I spent working my way through this book made me realize I did, in fact, waste $11, and that this might benefit some people, but not me.
I would, however, like to try other challenges. I want to broaden my horizons and learn more about the world and myself. So if you, reader, have suggestions, you know how to contact me. Maybe this time, it'll be something less self-help-book, the-authors-wrote-this-to-make-money-esque. Please don't hesitate to reach out.
Thank you for reading, and stay tuned for my typical organizational tips and tricks coming soon!